still feeling 19...

i blinked and suddenly i'm 26 and in graduate studies...an adult who still feels like a teenager...with real responsibilities, yet still getting scolded for my incomplete uniform...a little lost, a little heartbroken...looking forward, yet wishing i could fall asleep in the past...wishing i hadn't drifted away from God with all my hospital stuff...wishing i was closer to my family...hoping i do not let the world change my values and actions, my priorities...hoping, in short, to have a full and honest LIFE, learning to be kinder, and mending my mistakes along the way...